An awakening truth can smack us right between the eyes sometimes. Like a sudden loud bolt of lightning on a calm day, an unknown before truth can shake us to the core. When what we thought was true turns out to not be then a life has to change or spiritually die.
If we spiritually give up and mourn loss of love, eventually we may die alone and lonely. We may even miss something that will truly be what is meant for us.
For so very long I have loved him spiritually
and for who he is,
there will always be love in my heart for him,
my spirit will forever hold him in high regard, love and respect,
the only problem is I was so sure he had love for me,
a love that was growing, yet he feared trusting love again.
He was just afraid to open his heart,
afraid to trust me and to trust himself to risk,
that is what I thought was the truth,
and I loved him unconditionally, with no expectations,
then I awoke to the truth and it hit me hard,
so hard I wanted to die from the deep hurt,
he did not have the same feelings for me.
I withdrew into my sanctuary and did not
want to come out, ever.
And eventually I awoke to another truth,
I remembered I loved and respected myself,
and I survived to awaken to yet another truth,
someone I have known for many years loves me,
he loves me unconditionally,
he knows about the love I had for another,
and he loves me anyway.
I have allowed my love for the one I thought loved me
to go to a quieter place,
I have given this new love a chance to grow,
and it is growing more beautiful every day.
Don’t let love pass you by,
love is a beautiful gift,
it is the core of life.
© 2018 Phyllis Doyle Burns
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