Tears Inside
Tears Inside – We all as humans build walls and defenses to protect those deep feelings and passions that run rampant through our hearts and minds. We put on the happy face and tell a joke or two. Our outward social facade can be so different from what we are truly feeling deep within. How many of you have felt the emptiness of missing someone? How many of you have hidden from others the misery you feel? How many of you have slowly started to drown from the – tears inside.
Tears Inside
People say I am contented, because I tell a joke or two,
Deep within, tears inside, how I am missing you.
Laughing loud with my good fellows all around,
But, the flowing tears within are making me drown.
If you look closer and my smile seems out of place,
My heart is blue as I try to keep a straight face.
Thoughts of you make my days drift ever so slow,
Every morning I promise myself to, “Just let it go.”
What did I say? What have I done? Where have you gone?
The blues and the tears within me, I cannot outrun.
How I remember being together felt, oh, so right,
Dusk till dawn, tears within all through the night.
For others my outward persona is all a masquerade,
So worried that memories of you will only start to fade.
Each afternoon the tears within burden my heart,
Fear is that the cheerful exterior will start to come apart.
It seems nothing I say or do will ever make it right,
Tears within give me the words for sad poems that I write.
People say I am contented, because I tell a joke or two,
Deep within, tears inside, how I am missing you.
Kurt James
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The Denver Post, PM Magazine, and 9NEWS, all well-known Denver, Colorado media sources, have highlighted the powerful and evocative work of poet and novelist Kurt James. Focusing on Old West history, Kurt contributes feature articles to HubPages and Creative Exiles, exploring the eerie silence of ghost towns, the thrilling tales of outlaws and gunfighters, and the evocative imagery found in the Rocky Mountains.
Kurt’s early admiration for writers such as Jack London, Louis L’Amour, and Max Brand played a significant role in honing his skills as a storyteller. Twenty-one books (and counting!) transport readers to the Colorado Rockies and the Old West through Kurt’s vivid descriptions; the feel of rough-hewn cabins, the sounds of coyotes howling under starry skies, and the smells of campfire smoke and sagebrush are all palpable.
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Kurt is a proud member of the Western Writers of America, a group that values storytelling.
The Denver Post, PM Magazine, and 9NEWS, all well-known Denver, Colorado media sources, have highlighted the powerful and evocative work of poet and novelist Kurt James. Focusing on Old West history, Kurt contributes feature articles to HubPages and Creative Exiles, exploring the eerie silence of ghost towns, the thrilling tales of outlaws and gunfighters, and the evocative imagery found in the Rocky Mountains.
Kurt’s early admiration for writers such as Jack London, Louis L’Amour, and Max Brand played a significant role in honing his skills as a storyteller. Twenty-one books (and counting!) transport readers to the Colorado Rockies and the Old West through Kurt’s vivid descriptions; the feel of rough-hewn cabins, the sounds of coyotes howling under starry skies, and the smells of campfire smoke and sagebrush are all palpable.
Find Kurt James novels, short stories, reference books, and poetry—published by Midnight Wind Publishing—in print copies or digital downloads at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Goodreads, and other excellent bookstores; explore the diverse range of formats available.
Currently in production - The 10th book in his Rocky Mountain Series - Lee Moomaw Former Lawman.
Kurt is a proud member of the Western Writers of America, a group that values storytelling.
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Oh! Those tears inside are so painful and often there are no answers forthcoming. I so relate to this piece, Kurt. I ask why directly to one I lost and nothing comes back, no explanation which leaves me with more tears hiding inside. Very nicely penned work. Well done.
Phyllis, I truly believe almost everyone can relate to this piece in one form or another. I feel your pain for the one you loss…. Kurt
I feel the tears and pain through your poetic words. I sure can relate they say it gets easier but I think it gets harder.
Affairs of the heart are never easy and more often than not hardly fair. Thank you for stopping by and commenting Rasma…
Yes, Kurt, I can also relate to this. In fact, it reminds me very much of a wonderful song called “The Tracks of My Tears.” Great work with this touching poem.
Thanks for stopping by, Linda Ronstadt version of Track of my Tears probably was an inspiration to this Colorado Redneck since I have been listening to her greatest hits albums a lot of late….
I get that tracks of my tears vibe like John as well. Some people only see the masquerade going on outside never take the time to see the pain on the inside. So many relate Kurt. I’ve found myself just wanting to break down and bawl sometimes, but always caught myself to keep up that happy go lucky exterior. Nice work
Thanks for stopping by and commenting Paul…. I think everyone of us at one time or another just wanted to break down and let the tears flow – most just hide it and the let the tears drown them on the inside.
Very well written poem Kurt. Thank you for sharing. Jamie
Thank you Jamie