This Antagonist, this Will…My Addiction
Authors Note…
‘I think for a poet, it’s good to revisit some older works. It gives us an indication as to what we felt then and how we expressed ourselves. This work is many years old, I’m not exactly sure how old but certainly over ten years. Hope you enjoy it.’
How does it take so freely my obsessions,
and ground me to my knees,
colouring all I touch with a tainted brush.
How can it entice me so,
deliver my wants through rippled glass,
and leave me spent at the expense of sanity.
My focus spared of normal aspirations,
I move forward driven by past,
cat creeping in darkness to lose this spectre,
this malevolent addiction.
I am but a pawn to my ego’s thirst,
fixated on what I see as a purpose.
Pleasured moments of achievement fill me,
attach me even more to my passion,
stripping all that life offers to the bone.
Why do I have this oppressor,
a stalking ever-present orator,
this single repugnant antagonist,
this will.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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Very interesting, revisiting older works. It does show a difference – I think you know yourself more now, more sure of yourself. Do you feel you think or express differently now, Tony? It is very well penned.
Definitely styles changes and of course we continually learn, so one would expect a difference. I think my intentions haven’t changed and the style then was still developing. It’s an interesting exercise, though. Glad you enjoyed it, Phyllis. Take care