I Just Don’t Understand a Vengeful Mind
I find myself wondering in pensive gaze,
about tribulations that gave me such pain,
and is it the nature of the affront
or the intentions so sharp not blunt,
that pierce my heart and linger so long,
for not always do we agree,
our perspectives are vastly different,
so opposition is no grievous offence,
it is indeed the dark and malicious intentions
that hurt so deeply, when delivered
by those with whom we invested trust.
Betrayal, as it appears, is a deep cut,
when what we thought is proven wrong,
when people close become the ones to make us bleed,
and that is the greatest sting,
the longest pain to accept in life,
when once love is warped and trashed
for some selfish purpose in strife,
and in cold-blooded purpose
we are cut so deeply,
the scar is an ever-present reminder
of our loss.
What makes a person so malicious,
especially after what was purported as love,
what excuse is there for such a turn,
I just do not understand, for me respect never dies,
even if a relationship does,
and I carry no ill for relationships past,
understanding we may grow apart,
and with blessings find our chosen path in life
and let free the trials once experienced,
to find our truths and those with whom
we may share them.
But when people just hold onto past,
repeat the echoes of failure
and be lost in blame and vengeful predilections,
there can be no good from it,
just a soul lost from love,
practising hatred as a paradigm,
and worse, inflicting pain on their scapegoats,
to somehow relieve the pain they themselves feel
in a life they have so misconstrued,
left love to discover a rude awakening,
unhappiness their ever-present ally.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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This is so true. “What makes a person so malicious,
especially after what was purported as love,
what excuse is there for such a turn,
I just do not understand, for me respect never dies,
even if a relationship does.” It behooves me as to why vindictiveness towards another by turning children against the other parent as an example can be nothing short of insanity. For years tearing children apart from their father or mother, why? what does one gain by such ruthlessness. So I’m with you Tony, neither can I understand or come to grips with a vengeful mind. Nicely penned, brought out some stinging memories from my past and failed marriage.
Sorry for lighting up those embers Vincent, just venting my own exacerbation, not getting it at all. I guess the fact that we don’t understand is a good thing, because we are both not like that at all; that’s why it’s such a conundrum, that people, especially those who supposedly loved us, can be so damned malicious. It’s simply beyond me. Take care my friend.
I believe revenge comes from one’s anger at their own inadequacies and failures, so they lash out at others, to lay blame on the innocent – such a screwed up way to live. It is an addiction and an illness. Very well penned, Tony. Take care dear friend.
Glad you related and enjoyed the expression, Phyllis. Take care.