How Easily We Bleed
How easily we bleed, our flesh diaphanous,
vulnerable to every word and deed,
and our thoughts akin to the lashings we receive
from inequitable seeds within
in life’s ceaseless foray.
I often feel like a flagellant,
giving life a break, for in the end it is proven,
by my own hand my mistakes,
and penance I must pay
to rid the pain of yesterday.
And blood has indelibly marked my life,
and so often from my heart,
where hopes and future rested,
and in the end detested I, for being who I am,
and standing on my own two feet.
As each time I wondered,
what I’d done to attract such betrayal,
and each time I pondered I could not attest my fail,
just change rejected and squandered the love
I’d so freely given.
It was me that always carried on,
never let go the ideal of love,
even though there were problems to sort,
I never thought of leaving, yet that is what most people do,
when obstacles stand in their way.
In a way the bleeding attests my stance,
what I believe in heart and circumstance,
loyalty my calling card, a stepping stone
for those who cannot truly love,
who are still searching for themselves.
There are lessons to learn, and I have had my share,
but dare I become too cynical,
that is the day when love can no longer
bear the pain,
and I will no longer seek to entertain a tryst of worth.
For many seek love from need,
a loneliness, a sense of fear precedes,
and that is no reason to be attached, at least for me,
I have enough in life to love and cherish
and appreciated every moment I breathe.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
videos on YouTube and book sales on website thoughtsforabeautifulmind.com, Amazon and digitalprintaustralia.com.au/bookstore
- Brutal Night - March 30, 2021
- Like a Breeze Recalls - March 27, 2021
- Torrents - September 5, 2020
Indeed my friend, bleed we do. Often at our own doings, I never wanted to leave either, but when the pain and misery gets overbearing and becomes a very one sided marriage and meanness and vindictiveness sets in, it’s time to leave and find ones sanity elsewhere before your put into an early grave by a spouse who wants nothing more for you to bleed out. One can learn to live alone comfortably with themselves, having close relationships from afar or even nearby. But my comfort zone is you have your place and I have mine and that keeps for a good strong relationship especially as an older person who has become set in their ways. I’m content to keep it that way now. Well penned Tony as always, your last stanza summed it up for me. Cheers.
So true Vincent, until she was gone I didn’t realise what state I’d been in. Her leaving brought a fine clarity that transformed how I saw my life and in the end, it was for the better. But of course the pain was profound regardless. I have found peace with it now and know this is just part of my path. Appreciate your generosity my friend. Cheers!
To appreciate every moment you breathe is a wonderful sign of healing peace. I have learned from you, Tony, how to look at mistakes and failures as lessons I needed to learn – it has made me a better, stronger person, more at ease and peace with myself. This is a great piece of work and very beneficial for others. Well done indeed.
I’m so pleased you relate and find meaning in my thoughts Phyllis. When we are open, we can learn from anything thrown at us, and that is a blessing. Take care dear friend.
That is the way with love it makes you happy and when it is taken away your heart is left bleeding. Love those ending verses that poetically refer to lessons learned and offer hope.
So pleased you enjoyed it Rasma. Take care.