You Tell Me, Am I Crazy?
Can it be
that what I see is blind to truth,
my perception found wanting,
my insanity absconding
with what sense I once had;
who am I to know
if my thoughts are tainted
by a lost cause,
each foray into reality
a flailing armed causality
of my awareness incomplete.
How am I to know
what line I walk,
if others cannot see it,
perhaps I too have been it,
but now somewhat remiss,
and what comparison abides the truth,
like a gormless fish or a ruse
for all I would like to be,
nowhere near reality,
just projections of an ego’s flight,
a delusion I have groomed.
Perhaps insanity is a wanted state,
something with which I can related,
not restricted by the crazy world I’m in,
filled with sin and inequality,
poverty and oppression I cannot fathom,
a chasm of despair, when all I want is peace,
a release from all the hurt,
a kind smile, a helping hand
and to trust someone in faith unwavering,
to know someone’s got my back,
and what I lack is just a lesson away.
Can it be I’m just a cynic,
worn down from a lifetime of disappointment,
for what I see is not upheld by others,
and morals just my truth,
smothered by the sins of my brothers,
leaving me disheveled,
leveled out by wanting to understand
how lost people can be,
and maybe my sanity is not in question,
but that would mean the world
itself is just the congestion of crazy.
You tell me?
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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You are not crazy, Tony – you have been hurt too deeply and as you say, “need a helping hand”,
” when all I want is peace,
a release from all the hurt,
a kind smile, a helping hand
and to trust someone in faith unwavering,
to know someone’s got my back,
and what I lack is just a lesson away.”
After the experiences you have had it is normal to need and ask for support. I am here if there is anything I can do to give you that support, I do have unwavering faith in you. This verse is heart-rending, a plea that is heard and well-written.
Questioning is a major part of awareness, knowing exactly our true feelings and state of mind. For truth is often hidden and we need to delve deeper for answers. Glad you related Phyllis. Cheers!
Yes, I know that. You wrote “you tell me” so I figured it was open to offer help if needed. Guess I am not needed. Take care.
Always needed Phyllis, just the rumblings of my mind splayed out for all to consider. Cheers!
Such a heartfelt verse dear Tony…you are the first real poet whom I have had the privilege to read and ever since then I have found your words and ideals to be beautiful, inspirational and full of wisdom reflecting the wonderful person that you are..and who can argue that it is indeed a crazy world that we live in…I found this write to be deeply emotive..thank you for sharing..
You are too kind Anjana, and I so appreciate your words and support. I love that you find my work inspirational and it has been my privilege to watch you grow and become a fine poet in your own right. Growing and sharing is a gratifying way of life dear friend. Take care