I Quantify My Grief
To quantify my grief,
I measure the sleep I’ve not had,
multiplied by the tears I’ve shed,
and the pain I feel inside,
divided by the knowing that guides me
to the balance I so seek.
And the pain surges,
sometimes irrepressibly,
where there is no tinder to ignite,
ravaged many times this cavern within,
where sin comes to die,
and secrets hide, out of reach.
So what is pain
if not the opposite of pleasure,
and life abides between,
in endless undulations, one and then the other,
so who am I to judge between,
right and wrong, good or bad my brothers.
What we feel is but our potential,
to know both sides,
and eventually not judge either
for what they are is us,
squeezed to be malleable,
accepting to be whole.
Joy and grief are so close,
the emotions that raise our consciousness,
despair in loss, joy in gain,
both a different kind of rain,
to cleanse our souls
and understand who we are, defined.
How we focus on loss,
yet joy be so fleeting,
perhaps it is our perceptions that are wrong,
our judgement so ill-defined,
we hurt more and smile less,
just because we cannot accept pain.
Tony DeLorger © 2017
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Nicely expressed. Joy and grief often mingle with our ever changing emotions.
Glad you appreciated it Rasma, thank you for your comment. have a great day!
The mathmatical approach to grief…seems too organized and tidy. Yet you’ve done a fine job at using that launching pad to tell a tale of a roller coaster ride occurring inside of you.
Glad you appreciate the work Ralph. Cheers!
I could never quantify my grief, it would do me no good, for it never leaves the soul. Maybe in our next world we will be given the power to never feel it again, banish it forever from our life. Could it be that pain is simply the brother to love. We must endure it here on this existence in order to be rid of it in on our next journey. I agree with Ralph about it being a roller coaster inside us, and only we can stop the rolling by leaving this world of pain behind us, but only when we are called and our work is done here. Nicely penned Tony as always.
Much appreciated Vincent, yes, the roller coaster in indeed life and we must endure for our very growth and progression. Cheers!