Accepting Love – Embracing its Countenance
Accepting Love…
That I might accept love, embrace
its countenance, without reservation
to mark my final days
before the greeting of my grave,
and not from ill-grown eyes
wearing the sultry lids of depravity
perhaps, I would be saved…
Childhood has its way
the delicate shaping of youth’s making
to be held with high accord, guided
by the innate goodness of mentors,
or washed in the mud of unspeakable sin
where so begins, another life-long war
ever seeking the balance, of all things
before
There can be no valor, no growth
nor reception of love, found in the shade
of unwarranted guilt, clutched forever
in the mind
self-punishment, unwilling to sever the tie
binding memory of perpetrator to victim
these wretched days-
wanting to replay and replay
the bygone days, impossible to change
I am not blind
to my own stagnancy of forwardness
knowing fully, the burden of forgiveness
holds the answer, to release me…
all of which, I stubbornly cling-
while the complexity of instilled patterns
remain drawn into my eyes, desperate
to survive
I thought I knew love…
beyond the foolishness, groomed in youth
by the will of another’s sickness
where the chapters of my life
willingly gave love, profoundly hesitating
to receive it…
only bearing, the unbearable witness…
all that holds me hostage
shall be severed by forgiveness.
I gravitate towards rhyming verse, free of any constraints, and strive to create an experience through sound, flow, and imagery. I am a writer at Allpoetry.com. and a proud Mother of two beautiful boys.
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Very well penned and expressive verse, Melissa. Great piece, I enjoyed reading it. Well done.
Thank you Phyllis, appreciate it. Have a lovely weekend.
Best,
Mel
Very powerful statements. Well written. Tis so true that it is impossible to fully and completely fall on love with someone if you cant love yourself.
It is also better sometimes to let go and start fresh. Nice work Mel~Paul
Thank you Paul, yes, gotta let go of that unnecessary baggage, embrace the gifts. …appreciate the comment.
Best,
Mel
A profound espousing of the need for forgiveness, despite out tragedies and experiences in life. The only way to let go of the past and its demons, is to forgive those who harmed us, and in that, forgiving ourselves and absolving the guilt and other remnants of hurt. Beautifully rendered and in answer to your own questions. Great work Mel.
Thank you Tony, the answer was always there, but it’s powerful to say it out loud, have the reality of it look back, rather than hush it away, manifesting into more ache. Appreciate your comment.
Best,
Mel
This is a powerful testament of releasing your soul, setting it free from any kind of guilt. Life has a of imposing guilt upon us, we know we are all sinners, striving to find forgiveness throughout our days here on earth. How we handle our baggage is our responsibility. I’ve had my own guilt ridden burdens and until I was able to fully release my soul from it, then and only then did I find peace. Yet I struggled with it for years, digging myself deeper and deeper towards an early grave, until I found release by forgiving the person who brought so much upon me. I know you will find peace, if you haven’t already Melissa. This was a brilliant exploration of our weakness as humans. For we are in many ways a tragedy here on this stage of life and some of us will find the magic potion to turn that frown from upside down to happiness. I wish you well dear poet.
Such a thoughtful comment, I really appreciate it. I know I will find peace and forgiveness. Writing brings me closer to that possibility. So nice to see you back. 🙂
Best,
Mel