I Am No Saint

No saint am I,
not for the want of trying,
yet that darkness still exists,
deep in my crevices,
a voice that says ‘Fuck it!’
and let the dice fall where they may;
but I know who I am,
a pacifist, a loving heart,
and try as I might to these ideals impart,
there is a bitterness, a revenge in me,
like a hidden twin, my opposite
that looms, entreats and
beckons from the start.
Perhaps that is our course,
to choose the path, black or white,
to kindness find or lash out in spite,
listen to reason or the knee-jerk response,
think of advantage
or for the common good wants;
yet does the souls discern
or does it simply release,
all these aspects of thoughts and potential
that could create such havoc,
and happiness cease;
maybe its balance within just talking,
finding a fulcrum of worth.
I am no saint, never will be,
but recognizing extremities is a knowledge of self,
and my choices will define who I will be,
when all is amassed in hindsight,
until then I follow the good and the bad,
accept the lessons of failure,
and hopefully I will learn enough to avoid,
and the darkness within disfavored;
Yet I must acknowledge that shadow,
for it is part of my being,
and ignoring it only ensures its flow,
not addressed and dangerous,
seeking a forced release.
- Brutal Night - March 30, 2021
- Like a Breeze Recalls - March 27, 2021
- Torrents - September 5, 2020







I believe we all have a dark side as well as our good. And how wonderful that is, for without having both life could be quite boring. To embrace our dark side is to know our light, our good. As you say, Tony, it is part of who we are. And thank goodness for the loving hearts. Great work.
Thanks Phyllis, glad you appreciated the work. Cheers!