At No-One’s Command
I do wonder how I appear,
perhaps too thoughtful, too austere,
maybe flippant, unattached,
a pariah, a recluse, a human mismatched,
or even intelligent, an intellectual, of positive charms,
or a believer, a perceiver, of limited qualms,
am I kind of heart a dreamer or muse,
a reckless idealist who pontificates the blues,
perhaps I am good-intention-ed,
but sadly ineffectual,
maybe bitter and twisted
and with malice too sexual,
or just a human
with endless faults and imperfections,
a pacifist, a lover but without any connections,
perhaps I am crazy,
my mind riddled with delusion,
or ahead of my time, and feeling confusion,
or maybe I’m right, and the world all wrong,
when I say I’m so sick of contention so strong,
hounded by egos and bombarded with greed,
I barely can go out now,
the confrontation too deep,
with violence and mayhem out on the street,
war so close with stark images to greet,
my every day connection to the world.
Who am I, and what you think of me,
is about you, your perceptions, what you see,
and I am a Chameleon,
a being in your circumstance,
what you dictate, I just romance,
to be all you expect, while I’m just me,
what I am, circumspect,
different from what you see,
so it matters not how I appear,
for the only judgement is mine that is clear,
and I know my faults, my talents and thoughts,
and try to deliver love in all my resorts,
so see what you will, judge and demand,
but I’ll just be me, at no-one’s command.
Tony DeLorger © 2016
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I love those last two lines, Tony. It is often curious how others see us. Being content with who we are is what is important. Nicely penned and rather lively verse – well done.
Glad you enjoyed it Phyllis, yes, accepting the self, warts and all is an important step in our growth. Cheers!
Tony,
This is fantastically written as it has entered my mind, as well, that those who judge me, only do so in the realm of “their own perceptions”. People are quick to judge, but usually way off track in their criticisms. What they “think” they know about us is exactly that…only what they “think” they know about us. And no where in their minds exists the real truth because they do not know us, inside and out.
People are very quick to judge and it is also more often people with an open heart that find themselves at the end of this type of ridicule. Their meager perceptions mean nothing as their supposed truth has nothing to do with us. Glad you related Tamara, and strength to you, to be who you are regardless. Take care.