Kim…a shimmering light
My shimmering light…
Her eyes bloodshot, her head swollen,
she peered through frosted Perspex,
drops idly running, creating rivulets of clarity,
and she could not move, tied to tubes and wires
like the bipping machines that held her, to life.
Her dark brown eyes found recognition,
and around her breathing tube, a smile struggled,
her eyes glistening with joy,
and seeing it crushed my soul, for all her pain,
I could barely hold composure.
Yet here, this small child, barely a thread to life,
loved with all her heart,
a father that she would never really know in life,
but one she already knew in her soul,
and I opened the small opening and held her tiny warm hand.
Three months this life,
the knife her daily struggle, repair after repair,
and pain her constant companion,
yet what joy she felt, what love she gave, despite,
and I am humbled by her strength, the heart of an angel.
This little baby was a gift, a profound gift of understanding,
her every moment valued beyond possibility,
her love boundless, infinite,
and mere weeks went by and she was gone,
but never ever forgotten, my daughter Kim.
Tony DeLorger © 2016
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Oh Tony my heart aches after reading this very saddest of writes you’ve penned. There is nothing more painful to a parent than the loss of a child at any age. I pray you have found strength, yet I know your beautiful child will forever remain in your heart and soul. I send you blessings and peace my friend. Sadly expressed.
Every now and then I feel it incumbent upon myself to write about Kim. She changed my life forever and gave me far greater insights into life than any other person I have ever met. She was my little angel and her strength found me and mine. It is sad but also a miracle of enlightenment, showing the purity of perspective and how love shines through everything, even suffering. Cheers!
Though sweet little Kim had such a short life, it was profoundly beautiful and meaningful, Tony. She was brought into your life as an Angel, to impart the enlightenment within you that you needed. What a joyful even though sadly painful experience for you. What Kim gave you was far beyond what anything or anyone else could have done. How touching and beautiful the words from your heart and soul can give back to her a profound love that her gift gave you. My heart is full of tears, love and admiration for both of you.
So sweet Phyllis, and thank you, and all you said is so true, my little angel who gave me so much. Now forty years ago, like yesterday, she remains in my thoughts and will for ever. Thank you.
My heart breaks reading this poem. Kim will always be in your heart and soul.
Thank you Nithya, it was a major change in my life and she will never leave my heart. Glad you appreciated it.