He sits upon my bed like a prince, his legs so perfectly placed in grace, one paw over the other. Beast looks at me deeply, pensively and I wonder what’s on his mind, how he sees me. He smiles as cats do with a slow closing and opening of his eyes, and I know he loves me, but whether he understands my pondering, is another thing. His purr is loud and rhythmic, his pleasured glance undeniable and I can’t help but give him affection, for all he is and makes me feel. He nuzzles into my beard, no doubt more familiar as my fur, and if I don’t continue to lavish him with touch, he will vocalise his disconcerted malaise.
Eventually, he sleeps deeply, and his rather quaint high-pitched snore, endearing. And on sunny mornings he rolls over quite inelegantly, legs spread as if on a rotisserie, soaking up every bit of that warmth. As I write, he sleeps, but a few feet away, as close as he can get to my chair. There is no privacy, no escaping his needs, as even on the toilet, he must be there receiving attention, despite my cares. But regardless of inconvenience and the rituals of his day, he is the most loyal of friends, the most affectionate companion one could ever wish for.
He may be a cat, and as some think quite inferior, but to me, he is far more as I see a soul learning, loving and true, more than most people I know. So my view is different, and he gives far more to me that I have ever given to him.
My boy has a growth on his leg, common they say but its malignancy will no doubt prove his undoing. Can’t just remove it. Can remove his leg, but he is a big cat and the vet is not so sure he’d do so well at his age. He limps around, I lift him if he can’t get somewhere, but he takes it all in his stride and doesn’t complain one bit.
I think about what my life would be like without him and I just can’t look at that. People say he’s only a cat but to me, he is so much more and without him, a piece of me will fall, of that I am certain. So I just spend my time adoring him, being his every wish and command, for time is no certainty and my love for him is endless. Whatever happens, we are connected, now and always.
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