Urge To Run
The urge to run has taken over my thoughts I forever ponder,
Born 150 years to late the cowboy in me wants to wander.
Night is long as the thunder rolls across the timberline,
Crack and rumble brings the lightning flash as per design.
Pulling over I can hear the raindrops as they beat against the windshield,
The outsider, the recluse, the cowboy in me is no longer concealed.
Top of the Divide in the hammering rain my thoughts are now askew,
My mind is adrift and I don’t know why I act the way I do.
Falling in love with you just ignited the fuse,
Most times I act as if I don’t have a single thing to lose.
Being close creates the restlessness the urge to run,
Even before loving you, loving us has ever even begun.
My mind and heart maybe will never be prepared,
Talking to you about us – the loner in me just got scared.
I have always been my own worst adversary
Lost a wife and many of girlfriends because I have always been so damn wary.
Memories flood of the things I’ve done for foolish pride,
The lone wolf that lives within me is so ever tough to hide.
Looking in the west there is the open wet road in front of me,
Glancing east in Denver is you and what could be.
Looking west is the road away and one I have known before,
To the east in Denver my heart spins and my love for you roars.
I know that you and I could have a life most would crave,
Not sure if the cowboy and the restlessness in me can behave.
Murky feelings and the urge to run forever defeated.
This time I will not let my love and heart be cheated.
My mind is jumbled and for once my heart wins out,
I have decided you, our love I cannot possibly do without.
Thunder roars when turning the pickup and down the mountainside,
Happiness and that loving feeling is by your side.
Rain and thunder the high mountains are storming,
Through the rain-soaked darkness—Denver by morning.
Kurt James © 2018
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