What I Am in My Malaise

What I Am in My Malaise
What I Am in My Malaise

Relentless the ache,
the cake and eat it too misnomer,
when deliveries are few and far between,
the panoramic view of being a target,
far less a joy than thinking anything true
from the mouths of human beings.

Up the garden path and back,
a track I’ve known and in ground
the trench my feet have made,
when soothing words and promises
allayed my fears,
to be the very spear that pieced my heart.

Life and all its aspects come at cost,
of learning, of falling to the assumptions
that create grievous bodily harm,
and a mental state that needs mediation,
or the straight-jacket a choice,
when those voices won’t shut up.

I’ve drowned in self pity, so much,
I get lung infections,
and my predilections are driving me crazy,
wanting to know but better off not,
and then, get trampled by the stampede for the door,
what more could they do?

Death is the sleep I never get,
just hope my insomnia lasts,
the heart’s still viable, but bruised,
and imparts a will to trudge on,
through the pain and paragon of mercy,
when life just stops short of breathless.

I’m restless, beyond quirky,
and creativity the activity
that saves my inert aging core,
so I just say more and repeat the process,
while ailments slowly devour this once taut body,
and like dripping candle wax, I stand in my under-daks.

I guess life is filled with inequity,
a stinging, slow lethargy in age,
but I still have autonomy,
rivalled my gastronomy,
as I eat my way through the worries that I hold,
and in fairness to life, all my wrongs of strife,
it was me that led me up that garden path, after all.

Tony DeLorger © 2018

Tony DeLorger

Full time author, freelance writer, poet and blogger since 1999. Twenty one published works, past winner of 'Poet of the Year' on HubPages, 'Poem of the Year' on The Creative Exiles, writer for Allpoetry.com, Google+, tonydwtf.blogspot.com.au
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Tony DeLorger

Full time author, freelance writer, poet and blogger since 1999. Twenty one published works, past winner of 'Poet of the Year' on HubPages, 'Poem of the Year' on The Creative Exiles, writer for Allpoetry.com, Google+, tonydwtf.blogspot.com.au videos on YouTube and book sales on website thoughtsforabeautifulmind.com, Amazon and digitalprintaustralia.com.au/bookstore

4 thoughts on “What I Am in My Malaise

  • August 29, 2018 at 7:37 AM
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    Indeed that perverbial path we trudge day in day out. Be comforted in knowing you are not alone Tony. Many of us fall into the same cycle of a misunderstood pattern of existence. Gifted people’s are cursed in many forms. This is but one of many ways my friend. Trudge on and know tis but just another obstacle we must daily fight to overcome. Peace in your soul I send this day.

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  • August 29, 2018 at 7:58 AM
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    Thank you my friend, and peace to you Vincent. This is just life with all its ups and downs. Take care.

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