Finding the Peace, Finding Release
Dissuaded by the insistence of voices
that resound like echoes in my memories,
I often hesitate with those trials of affirmation,
somehow frightened by my own doubts,
yet this cycle of seeming emasculation
is not a reflection of measure
but purely questioning doubts,
so long ago reflected.
At first denied, outright rejected,
I then placate the feelings with my present truths,
yet still those doubts do ring,
and I push myself to abide,
to prove to myself my state of being alive,
and to my surprise my doubts unwarranted,
my thoughts and ability perfectly attuned,
and I know I should have more faith.
Perhaps its more humility,
no cloud of insecurity but a tempering of self
so attuned to spiritual growth, I sometimes
relent on self, an act of self-judgement
that is counter-productive,
as I utilize my abilities to progress,
and see clearly the truths of my state
and direction of my path.
Those voices these days are seldom heard,
but still I often doubt myself,
maybe me keeping me in check,
or perhaps a fault I will not let go,
either way it has lessened and my foresight is sound,
grounded by affirming my sight in simple ways,
to allay my fears and respect my gifts
so I can live peacefully with myself.
Introspection is a two way street,
but without judgement a better proposition,
and developing an honesty with self
an imperative for progression,
a necessity for the clarity of perspective,
and an upholding of truth,
rather than any delusion or self-protection
to abide the ego.
I now find peace in my being, each breath at ease,
immersed in the truths I have found
through hardship and contention,
and now seek a quiet intervention
to allow the expression of my inner speak,
those words that found epiphanies worthy of revelation,
of sharing and confirmation
on this path we all share in life.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
videos on YouTube and book sales on website thoughtsforabeautifulmind.com, Amazon and digitalprintaustralia.com.au/bookstore
- Brutal Night - March 30, 2021
- Like a Breeze Recalls - March 27, 2021
- Torrents - September 5, 2020
To find that peace within we must be honest with our self – you are so right about that, Tony. It is not easy, but, once we learn, truths begin to open. Wonderful journey and great work. Take care.
Glad you appreciate the thoughts Phyllis, take care.