Never ready for that sting,
that heart-wrenching that brings you down,
hopes lost, ache profound,
when love is tossed, discarded
as if nothing at all.
And void of understanding,
dreams that had been realized
only moments past, let go,
like the blood in my veins ceased to flow
and sorrow filled each one.
Such expectation, such certainty,
broken like glass, shards in my heart,
a belief torn by grief so consuming,
like a looming shadow, wiping clean
my very soul.
So how can love so fine
dissipate so quickly,
fall so completely before my eyes,
when I lost in its flow know not
the coming maelstrom.
Where hearts attuned let go too soon,
swallowed by the ravages of betrayal,
the last nail in my prostrate soul,
beaten so completely,
shattered, my whole.
And see it coming I never did,
as if a turn so unexpected,
no thought, just rejected,
left me flailing in dismay,
trying to find ground, to center this affray.
And then the anger rose in me,
this planned and secret ploy
that destroyed all the hope I had with you,
now dashed so callously,
while I all oblivious in pursuit.
You cannot take away what you have done,
its not the parting but the how
that’s really stung,
as if our love was meaningless,
our children superfluous, just a toll.
But now I see you saved me,
your broken soul too weighted
to carry me as well,
the swell in your storm too outdated,
too belated to render dawn,
instead you ride alone,
blaming every soul you’ve ever known.
Goodbye my love, I wish you luck,
for I have found my own.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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