Accepting the Self, Faults and Gifts
Sadly able to read between the lines,
I often wish it weren’t true,
see the faults, the underlying current of intention,
that binds words and emissions of contention,
and it seems to be growing, that knowing
that gives away the premise,
and for me truths that cannot absolve
what stands before me.
This is more than a burden,
more than a nuance of understanding,
and no matter how I question it,
it echoes back with clarity,
and I must accept the sight God gave me,
regardless of me wanting it or not;
and what do I then do with it, this knowing,
secrets of those in sewing their lives.
Like a secret told not to be disclosed
for the damage it could cause,
yet the knowledge sits with me,
a burden to bear and understand,
that can in no way be shared for any reason,
then I think perhaps it’s for my learning,
discerning people’s minds
for my own truth and acceptance.
I see too much, I know too much,
it hurts too much in the grasping of reality,
the human disparity of being,
and I often see the limitations,
the rejections of right paths, yet can’t enlighten,
can’t share the aftermaths of circumstance,
that will surely ensue,
hurt and consume those I know.
Tis not my ego that speaks,
just a sad burden needing release,
and the more I question truth,
the more it proves to me my gift,
and I cannot shift its weight, its sating truths,
that every day accrue within my sentience,
the resounding of meanings and what’s to come,
in a world filled with deception.
My life I’ve spent doubting,
what to me was just imagination,
until the truth came knocking,
quashed my doubts and gave me the makings
of another person, other than me,
an inner voice often contrary
to my first instincts,
but loud has been its resonance,
and now above all else, I listen.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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I also have the gift of sight, so, I fully understand what you say, Tony, and how you feel about it. I recently wrote a post about it and have not published it yet. Someone I love dearly is involved with someone who is dangerous, a person who will turn on one quickly and cause a lot of damage – but, do I have the right to expose this? I don’t know at this point, for, it may hurt the one I love and that I cannot do. You have expressed your feelings well on this subject and I know you have a good heart and know yourself well. As always, you are kept in my prayers. Well done, dear friend.
Yes I knew you would relate to this Phyllis. Appreciate you very kind words my dear friend. Take care