Within me the dark past attested,
the triumphs arrested before the ego takes flight,
and memory strikes hard in knowing,
yet specifics not sewing an elegant arrogance,
rather a quiet sagacious will
determining a better life from past mistakes.
Lives flash intermittently,
past experiences hint at iterative lapses,
and I try to keep balance
within the stream of circumstance,
as it continues to keep me whole,
by learning and growing.
I remember so much, intuitively,
but details often allude me,
as it should be, for a soul in learning,
but I give thanks for the connections
as it maintains my direction,
and allows me to see far more than I’m told.
A blessing and a burden, insight
like a line of truth embedded in thoughts,
and knowing it I thrive for all I derive from life,
as I accept the movements that placate my will,
knowing my direction needs changing
and truth reinvented, instills.
No greater or lesser travail,
just different, perhaps more open,
for knowledge helps to quash the fears,
to change circumstance and to accept the need for change,
and in humility, I find kindness,
for others and for myself.
Love’s paradigm remains,
other striving far less of my attention,
for in the end our connections are paramount
to a caring life, a sharing of hearts and souls,
that defines us as whole
more than any judgement of circumstance.
So I endure what life proposes,
undisclosed or obvious,
and I shall not cower in the face of anything,
fear just a mirage of deceit,
when relented, a freedom found,
a life of possibility and joy.
Tony DeLorger © 2018
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