In Retrospect…

In Retrospect...
In Retrospect…

Loosened by the grip of self-disdain,
I look at how I wore the brunt of blame,
believed those who chose to feed my doubts,
and then in spite imprisoned me,
self-contained and no way out.

My weakness the trigger of my fall,
my abusers vile recompense and more,
jealous hearts and lies to bind,
rumor mill of the malicious kind,
still crumbles my world.

Then I realised I chose to accept,
believed my own ineptitude,
all for the want someone else’s debt,
I, the displacement of a soul,
bereft of love and seeking blame, her goal.

Nothing had I done to attribute lies,
nothing but love was my intention,
and right had forever been her disguise,
a delusion of just retribution,
and I her chosen mark.

I see now the virus she started,
has gone full circle, broken hearts,
and torn lives to shreds,
all for the jealousy and greed
she fed a gormless audience.

In a way I abused myself,
for a moment buying in to all the lies she felt,
and as soulless as she is,
I feel sorry for her lot,
her unhappiness real, her memories forgot.

And as much as I have lost,
unjustly and harshly judged my lot,
I must move on, untethered to this soul,
who continues to hurt my children,
and who cannot see the toll.

Tony DeLorger © 2017

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Full time author, freelance writer, poet and blogger since 1999. Twenty one published works, past winner of 'Poet of the Year' on HubPages, 'Poem of the Year' on The Creative Exiles, writer for, Google+, videos on YouTube and book sales on website, Amazon and

2 thoughts on “In Retrospect…

  • November 21, 2017 at 10:46 AM

    Very nicely penned with good flow and rhyme, Tony. I empathize with you for the sorrow and doubts she put you through. I pray you will always remember you are worthy of far better treatment and much love. So, go forth, dear friend, with confidence and keep that knowledge you come from love in your heart and soul.


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