My Winter Blues…struggling light

Clouded by my own misgivings,
singed by their darker side,
skies befall such endless beauty,
had I doubted less,
my sigh far less to fall,
and grasping for light, feeling desperate,
I pray those clouds would part,
yet they too honor beauty,
and perhaps my heart is wrong.
What cause this pride of litmus,
judgement a poor man’s excuse,
when skies don’t hold up to what I expect,
my mood drops, debunked, confused,
and so I must see beyond the grey,
for the sun shines no matter,
and those clouds of my misgivings
are but a skin, a temporary ruse,
misconstrued, conveyed.
Yet from slumber’s hold,
in half awaken blur,
I peer to skies for some comfort,
light my soul given morning stir,
and if it does not deliver
I feel a weight that locks my bed,
that blur turns to darkness
and my mind somehow concurs,
for day has let down a needy soul.
Then in the death of lethargy,
awakened far too late,
and sun refuse to oblige my halcyon thoughts,
my brain in its dreamlike wake,
I struggle to recognize the beauty that abounds,
as the day could deliver anything
and my mood could be restored, sound;
so I guess I have to accept the weather,
and find favor in its moods,
just to attain some balance,
for all I misconstrue.
Tony DeLorger © 2017
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A weather report of the soul – I hope your spirit will be lifted to joyous sunshine within. Excellent phrasing, Tony, that stirs the heart and emotions. Beautiful work.
Glad you enjoyed it Phyllis, it was almost freezing last night, coldest beginning of winter for more than 120 years. Brrrrrr!