I forgive you not because it excuses your behavior. I forgive you because – I decided not to let it destroy my heart any longer. I was ashamed of the power you had over me even from the grave. One thing I learned as a young boy is that nothing good at all comes from abusing alcohol. Lesson’s for all those touched by this madness are sometimes never learned, other times it takes a lifetime. My forgiveness does not mean I have forgotten all the hurt, it means I have chosen to let go of the hurt. That moment that I decided to forgive you, I set my heart and mind free.
“I Forgive you”
Looking back sometimes is hard to do,
My hair is gray now – difficult, but now I forgive you.
Hatred has finally disappeared, faded away,
Fifty plus years later I think I am okay.
Dad when you drank – demons you tried to slay,
It never worked, they never stayed away.
With words and fist you made our life hell,
Vodka was your demon – you were under its spell.
Nothing ever good came from abusing the drink,
Had you, took over you so you could not think.
Your life ended, spring of nineteen eighty one,
No apologies for the things that you had done.
The years have flown by, now I ask for none,
Within myself – I forgive you, from your youngest son.
Poem by Kurt James
Kurt James © 2016
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