The vagrant’s life I host.
The lush sun seeped through the small crevice on the wall
You could smell the burnt coal, billowing through her iron stacks
I spent the better part of my life not feeling tall,
My demeaning soul, left countless times on these tracks.
My heart beats no more, rather it apes in echoes
Naked as the word of emptiness, I define it.
The shrieking halts, stillness swathes, and silence bestows—
That sullen noise… it hammers me… shakes me to bits.
I amble through boxcars, glazed over like a doughnut,
Sifting through trash, like it was another man’s treasure
My empty soul is poisoned and thus it corrupts,
Causing angst and inly, a thousand throes for pleasure
Like rotten little after notes, the remnants addle
I struggle, but then I find a symbol to impute.
A stone vestige stowed from a dismantled chapel
The pious verve brought me closer to his repute.
I channel it, resound my soul to its emptiness
Hoping to fill my own emptiness with its knowledge
But if I am riled by every rub that I address,
Then how do I think my reflection will be polished?
Another cold feeling prickles my skin, I shiver,
Rummaging for any form of cloth to cover me.
A fool I’ve been, postponing life’s rapture, so I dither,
Trying hard to find the shoulder of somebody.
I’ve kept a few of friends, not by the standards held by most
Mostly short-lived customers, a few were friendly ghosts.
I scavenged for crumbs, beholden for some day-old toast,
Accepting what I am, and the vagrant’s life I host.
I wanted to write down how I felt on paper,
But somehow I tried, and the paper stayed empty.
I’ve closed so many doors looking for a savior
I‘d found that the burden it presents was too hefty.
My eyes were cold and gray, hued by a tinge of red
Within me were the means of possibility
But even my eyes do not know which road to tread
Nor tinge to side with, so I lie in tranquility.
One day I will merge into that dazzling darkness
Vanish into it, my spirit into its essence.
My cares have passed, and a haggled bum is my pretense,
I am a soul, lost to the great void of existence.