The Question That Rattles Our Cage
Pealing back those layers
what version of me remains,
am I honest in my assessment
or am I lost within the delusions
that cope within every day;
the range of my unfolding
is to me an art unknown,
yet the characters I manifest
in transition, are too smooth
for me to have sewn.
Who am I but that person in reflection,
yet how deceitful am I to myself,
to play a game I don’t understand,
just to placate the bad,
from the seeds I have grown;
and in my deceit,
who sees what I truly am,
if I don’t recognize me,
is my life a complete sham,
a shadow of my truth?
If I collate my every person,
join all these layers of me,
will there be anything left,
or am I a void without intention
when all is revealed to be;
this fear is overwhelming,
this doubt a fervent pain,
not knowing the very core of me
is living on a stage,
a script sustained.
Perhaps I have multiple personalities,
each one oblivious to the other,
or even one the master,
the others just a cover,
a shield of protection;
of maybe I am unrealized,
a question still not answered,
a fragile ego so downtrodden,
in this mire I do wallow,
for fear of knowing who I am.
Tony DeLorger © 2016
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That age old question does indeed rattle our cage. Do we ever stop seeking who we are? I think not. For, to stop seeking would be an end to knowledge and enlightenment. We are who we are and to know who we are is a life time quest. Well done, Tony.
Glad you enjoyed the questioning Phyllis, Much appreciated.