My heart is racing, my palms are sweating, I’m on a bridge
Starting in childhood, my uncontrollable fear of height
A constant fear, unrelenting fright
Unwarranted, out of control
Stance frozen, don’t look below
Eyes begin to tear
Anxious, frightening fear
Hands clinched tightly on the rail
Unable to move, to attempt is a possible fail
Listen closely, the current is swift
If I fall will I be able to drift?
Questions erupting in my brain
To attempt this again, I must be insane!
I’m standing in the middle
I either walk on or retreat just a little
Slowly move one foot, then the other
Feeling faint, air too still, can’t breathe, about to smother
A scream rises in my throat
Erupting thoughts again, wondering if I fall, will I float?
I know I must move, do something!
I can’t stand here forever and do nothing
Cautiously my hand loosens it’s tightly held grip
My psyche encourages me, it’s only a short trip
I start to move, feet unwilling
My heart is pounding, blood rushing, my head filling
Just when I think I can’t go on
I hear a whisper, ” You can make it, come on along
Soon your persistent fear will be gone
Unwavering, I look into her kind eye’s
Trusting, forever near and so very wise
Assuring me, ” Tomorrow you’ll go all the way
I’ll be by your side, we’ll only go as far as you say
Your fear of height will be a memory of the past
Because you’ve conquered your childhood fear
It will be long gone at last ”
Who is this standing by my side?
It’s my beautiful guardian angel who makes my fear subside
She’s always been with me since childhood and now
She promised she would never leave me. Together we exchanged a sacred vow.